Sometimes i wonder who i am.

I feel like i am two different people.
On the one hand i am very deep and intellectual and have a heart to serve God and serve people.
Then on the other hand, I am someone totally different who's number one priority is having fun and being liked by everyone.
And sadly, when i am the latter it completely takes over and nulls any glimpse of the former.
Why do i allow this?

If you were asked by the people around me what the "spine" of my life is... most of them would probably say, strictly from observation, that it was 'to have fun' or 'to be liked'.

But that is not something that i want to be known for... nor is it what i want to be the driving force in my life. I want it to be God, and God's love for people, and serving people, serving God.

But that doesnt always show very well.
I dont like that.
I dont like who i am in that sense.

But in general i really do like who i am.... and that kinda bugs me.
How can i like who i am when i hate what i do and what i allow to influence me?